Comments on: Looking back, looking forward

By: A Tethered Time, A Sociable Sedentariness | Create!

A Tethered Time, A Sociable Sedentariness | Create! — Wed, 02 Jun 2010 15:53:06 +0000

[...] it. Except I have no energy to lose it, to cry too much in that state. I had only been hospitalized one other time and I remember finding that so incredibly frustrating, that I could not expend the energy on [...]

By: Silver Lining Thinking | Create!

Silver Lining Thinking | Create! — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 17:38:59 +0000

[...] My own health calamity is a little more unpredictable and changing, not as fixed and final as blindness. But because of this I feel like I’m perpetually on a roller coaster where I’m supposed to get used to every single hill, valley, twist, turn, pull of gravity and bump as if each singular one of these is the way it’s always going to be. I try to get used to the feeling of the steepest, most terrifying hill only to be lifted up again into the clouds. This year has been incredibly challenging for me, as I can only call about 40 days out of 365 healthy ones, and even then, the experience of drug withdrawals can sometimes feel like another disease in itself. I have never worked harder at “keeping it all together” than during this year, because suddenly it felt like I had my hands in so many wonderful things and I didn’t want bad health to take them away like it has in the past. As many times as I had to hear my doctor say, “You need to rest, you need to work less, you need to be more selfish, how you take care of yourself now will affect your health later, you aren’t helping your body get better, you won’t get better this way,” I couldn’t listen. But there were many times in past years when I did nothing but rest, and I still didn’t get better; I got worse, so ever since then, I’ve adopted the belief that, well no matter how terrible this is, I want something to show for it, I refuse to stop until my body physically makes me. Of course, once upon a time, I took this too far… [...]

By: Fall Barbecues, Freshly Cut Flowers, Owl Soaps and Pumpkin Ale Cheese Dip | Create!

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 23:56:28 +0000

[...] In a food processor, combine both kinds of cheese thoroughly. Add scallion, garlic and pumpkin ale and process again until well-mixed. Ta-da, you’re done! If you really want to get fancy, you can hollow out a round loaf of bread OR a pumpkin and put the dip in there. I bought a pumpkin specifically for this purpose and subsequently forgot. Oh well! And those, my friends, are just a few more ways why October is my favorite month. [...]

By: Sarah

Sarah — Mon, 06 Oct 2008 18:28:46 +0000

Oh, Alicia…I can’t even imagine. I, too, love your closing words, and am in awe of your epic bike ride. You really are an inspiration. (I try to do the Oprah gratitude journal thing, but I usually end up listing things in my head as I’m walking to the subway in the morning…it somehow feels less redonkulously corny than writing them down.)

By: Rachel

Rachel — Mon, 06 Oct 2008 17:19:37 +0000

I try and list 3 things in my journal every night but I don’t always make it. This is a great reminder. I love your comment about living and doing.